New Job Nerves

Your sweet face fills up my vision

And fear encompasses my heart

Because what if I’m not up to the job

And I let you down from the start?

 

I’m not sure that I’ve got the right skills

And that very special knack

I’m meandering along without a clue

So much knowledge that I lack.

 

I worry about my choices

About the decisions that I make

I’m scared that I’ll get things wrong

And make a silly mistake.

 

I fret when I return to work

That my absence causes distress

Will you be hurt and sad and lost

By having me around you less?

 

I stress about the care I give

Am I looking after you right?

I stay awake and watch you breathe

Night after tiring night.

 

Round and round whirl my fears

This is my biggest ever test

But I know the reason for my worry

Is because for you I want the best.

 

The days, the weeks, the months roll by

And more confident I grow

The feeling starts to creep on me

That there’s so much more that I know.

 

But the biggest measure of my success

Comes in your beautiful grin

It seems to say ‘Mummy, don’t worry

‘You always had this power within.’